L'OIGNON ! SELF-PORTRAIT

Not so long ago I got interviewed by a local newspaper. They wanted to make a portrait of me because of the artistic involvementI have been having in the community where I live. The article was nice, and in some ways, probably representing me. But in many ways, It just felt too fake, well to me at least. Because it was so polished, or showed a very polished side of me. The good girl. The one I don't want to be anymore. And it almost made me feel angry, or sad I don't know, because it is so hard to be seen for yourself in this world. Anyway, some details that I would have accentuated because they were really me where not in the article and some very insignificant things where taking the focus. And I mean, I get it, this is the point of a local newspaper, they have an angle and are not a literary feminist magazine. So I am not mad at them. But part of my felt bothered. Is everybody seeing me like this ? argggh. So, when I got the task to create a self portrait at my new school, I thought I`ll ask myself : Who I am today, or even more : what am I today ? for real. And the answer came unexpected : an onion. 

That's why I love art. Because it gives you the possibility to talk about what words can't express. At least for me. So here is the full installation process ( the video is my on social media)  and a few words that went rounds in my head while conceptualizing this installation : Bon Appétit !

Excerpt : intemporality of a traditional self portrait vs temporality of our beings, always changing. outside / inside, superficiality/authenticity. layers, LAYERS. Nice and shiny, hidden and complex. Some days onion some days chocolate cake. glitter to make yourself loved and beautiful outside. but do you scream inside ? Smokescreen / golden cage. beetroot juice as love. love you can drench your inside with, every day. Playful to compensate with the heaviness.